Tuesday, February 22, 2022

Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow

 

 

 


It’s been two years – or more – since most of us first heard about Coronavirus, also known as Covid. Back then, I never imagined that it would be around, still affecting us and almost every facet of our lives in 2022 but it is.  Life, like it or not, has changed since then. In addition to the long list of those I knew who died from this disease, society has changed. After so long, we wonder will we return to what we knew as “normal” or not. In addition to the ongoing pandemic, we have issues here in the U.S. with inflation (out of control and soaring fast), supply issues (can I get the items I need or want at the store? It’s anyone’s guess and there’s no real rhyme or reason to what’s not available), political issues, social and racial divide, and the threat of war in the Ukraine.

 I find myself repeating a few lines from Shakespeare's play Macbeth. "Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow" begins the well-known speech, words that reflect on the sometimes seemingly mundane aspects of life

Taken from Act 5, Scene 5 of what's known as 'the Scottish play", the full lines brim with a man's frustration,

"Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,

To the last syllable of recorded time;

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,

And then is heard no more. It is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing."

Since the words were penned by the Bard, they resonate with poetic grandeur. For those without Will Shakespeare's way with words, Macbeth could be expressing what many feel at present. He is complaining about a string of days, each too much like the other, and rants about the short span of life. In short, Macbeth questions the meaning of life and wonders whether or not life matters.

It does, of course, but I am guilty of moments when I wonder.

Sometimes it's hard not to speculate. After all, we're born, we live and we die.

What matters is what we do during that life, what we build and what we leave behind. So my tomorrows continue to segue into each other and pondering Macbeth's view, it's understandable why he felt as he did - Act V when he speaks the above lines follows Act 4 with the witches and their double, double, toil and trouble.

Another English author, Charles Dickens, once penned the lines “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.” Which it may be is in part our own perception and interpretation.

Although it seems we're all in for a long haul with today’s issues, hope doesn't die that one day this will be behind us. In the meantime, I move through my tomorrows, one day at a time, in petty pace from day to day.

 


 

Saturday, February 12, 2022

Two free reads for Valentine's Day

 

 


 

 Growing up, we called February 14 St. Valentine's Day. Three have their feast day on that date, the day they were martyred and all together there are around eleven saints with the name Valentine. Over the decades, however, it's become Valentine's Day and it's a much bigger holiday that the simple one that I recall from childhood.  Back then, we had a party with cookies or cupcakes, maybe punch. We created a mailbox from a cigar box or other easily obtained box from around the house, covered it with white or red or pink construction paper and cut out a heart to paste on the front. Then we wrote our names on tiny little Valentines for all our classmates and in a wild frenzy, we darted around the room delivering them on that day.

I believe it was in the fifth grade, in Mrs. Berryman's class, I was elected and crowned "Valentine Princess" which meant I got to wear a cardboard crown and a red tissue paper cape. I also got to pick one fellow student as my slave for the duration of the day.

In 1971, just days after losing my grandfather, Pop (Thomas "Frenchy" Lllafet), my cousin Carolyn Ann had a baby girl. That brought joy to my life and for me, Connie will always be "the Valentine baby."

One of the mock ads I wrote during an interview for my first radio job was one hawking special products for Valentine's Day. Since the station hired me and ran the ad, I suppose I did a good job.

Since this year Valentine's Day falls on Monday, the preceding days have been dubbed "Valentine's Day weekend" so expect retail frenzy, a shortage of flowers (which I already hear is in effect thanks to Covid), and long lines at your favorite restaurants.  It's also Super Bowl Sunday but since the Chiefs lost, my interest waned.

 


 https://www.amazon.com/Cats-Patient-Heart-Sontheimer-Murphy-ebook/dp/B00HYDY7B4

At any rate, in addition to offering one of my titles, Cat's Patient Heart, FREE through February 16 as an ebook, I'm offering this little short story I wrote some time ago, one that was inspired by the legend that gangster Al Capone once frequented the Rockaway Beach area in Southwest Missouri.

 Enjoy!

 

Lake Taneycomo,

Rockaway Beach, Missouri

1924

            A cool breeze rippled the surface of the lake as he walked across the dance pavilion toward her, different and dangerous, a leopard among paint ponies.   His raw and masculine scent was an intoxicating fragrance combining bay rum with bathtub gin.   He wasn’t smiling but his grey eyes burned with living fire igniting her senses into flame.

            “You wanna dance?” His voice sounded different too, rough and with an accent she’d never heard before.

            “I do.” Her mouth was dry and she wondered if her speech sounded as odd to him as his to her.  “I want to dance with you.”

            His hands encircled her and drew her into his arms.  Graceful and light on his feet for a large man, he swirled her among the dancers as if flying her to the moon.   Full bellied and round, the moon cast a silver light over Rockaway Beach and painted the ordinary scene with magic.   Behind the pavilion, Lake Taneycomo stretched from the beach to the wooded hillside opposite, a wide lake that resembled a fat river more than a large body of water.   Created by damming the White River in 1913, the lake drew summer folk from faraway cities like flies to a sorghum spill.   Although it was just May, vacationers were arriving in droves to swim, fish, and enjoy the solitude.  He must be one of them because he was different and even the way he moved on the dance floor spoke of away, of the land outside the Ozark hills.

            “What’s your name, beautiful?”

            She found her tongue to answer. “Genevieve Johnson.”

            “It’s a pretty name for a pretty lady.” His lips moved against her ear.  “I’m Al Brown.”

            His name was common. She’d expected something grand, an exotic name that summoned images of the stars or a foreign land.   With his white Fedora slanted to one side, his tailored grey pin stripe suit and fine shoes, he must be from Kansas City or maybe even St. Louis.

            “Are you from the City?” she asked, feeling shy and countrified.

            He laughed, a low bass rumble that reminded her of their tomcat when he purred.  “You might say that, doll – I’m from Chicago.”

            “Chicago?” That was where Sears and Roebuck headquartered and the city that had burned to the ground in the great Chicago fire started by a careless cow.  “You’re all the way from Chicago?”

            “Yeah, doll face, I am.” Laughter thickened his voice.

            “Is this your first time here?” Genevieve leaned into him, drawn the way moths failed to resist flame.

            Putting her head against his broad shoulder felt natural and he didn’t mind because he touched his lips to the top of her head in a quick motion.

 

 

            “Yeah, I never been so far out in the sticks until now.  I’m really from New York, though.  I’ve been in Chicago for a few years, though, and I’m in the used furniture business.”

            His hands were soft, not calloused like those of a man who did heavy work and although he was built sturdy, he lacked muscles.  Genevieve knew the look of a man who worked hard with his body and Al Brown lacked it.   Intrigued rather than repulsed by what seemed to be a lie, she snuggled closer and asked another question, “Where are you staying?”

            “Hotel Rockaway.” He named the biggest of the hotels along this arm of Lake Taneycomo.  Hotel Rockaway featured tall white columns like a Southern plantation house. There were others, including Hotel Taneycomo where she worked and a number of tourist camps, tiny resorts scattered in the trees above the lake.  “What about you?”

            She shook her head. “I’m from around here, born and raised within five miles of the place.”

            Al acted surprised, then intrigued. “You don’t say.  Whatcha do for fun, honey, watch the grass grow?”

            “We dance.” Genevieve said, prickling at the old joke. “And pick strawberries and go boating and fishing and work like the dickens.”

            “So you’re a working Jane.  What do you do for a living?”

            “I work in the brown hotel, Hotel Taneycomo.  I clean the rooms, fetch for the guests, and meet the boat when it docks from Branson.  Don’t you like the country, Al?”

            “Hang on.” The music ended, the piano and the drums fell silent so he led her

across the dance floor and outside.   Moonlight fell across the lake waters and turned

them to silver.   He took her hand and they walked down to the shore, away from the crowds and the noise.   Near the dock, he grasped her and kissed her, his lips demanding and urgent.  Al was greedy and devoured her mouth like some hungry man, eating pork cracklings on hog butchering day.  No one had ever kissed her with such selfish desire but it kindled her and she locked her arms around his neck.

            “Oh, baby.” He shook his head but his full lips curved into a smile.  “Yeah, I like the country.   The lake’s pretty and I like the trees.  They grow on you, ha, ha.  I never have been any place like this, where all the roads are dirt and people are living like pioneers or something.  It feels different here than in Brooklyn or Chicago, like a man could be something else here if he wanted to be.”

            Dizzy from the kiss, she leaned toward him in the darkness.  “Who would you like to be, Al?”

            He pulled a fat cigar from the inside pocket of his jacket and fired it with a match.   Her question had been teasing but he pondered it, his face serious. “I’d like to be someone without responsibilities, without a lot of razz-a-ma-tazz. I’d like to run a hotel or something, stay here and spice up the night life, open up a club, swim in the lake, and never worry about nothing more than what’s for supper.”

            Dreaminess gave his voice huskiness and she felt his emotion, sympathizing with it.   Whoever he was, she doubted he was in the furniture business.  When her arms had wrapped around him, she felt the strap of a shoulder holster beneath his suit jacket.  

 

 

 

Furniture men didn’t need to carry a gun but Al Brown, whoever and whatever he was, did.  Something she’d heard, a snatch of gossip or a bit read in a discarded newspaper niggled at her brain.  Al Brown, Al Brown, she thought, something about it rang a distant bell.  Still, Genevieve liked him and wanted him to hang around.

            “So, stay.” The bold words burst from her mouth before she considered them.

            Al laughed.  “I wish I could, cutie.  I wish life was so simple.”

            “Then how long are you staying?”

            He shrugged. “I don’t know; I was in St. Louis and heard about the place, came down on the train to scope it out.  You game to play with me while I’m here?”

            This man was fire. The old adage, play with fire and get burned had been one of the first things she learned as a child but Genevieve nodded.  “I’m game, Mister Al Brown.”

            “Then let’s play, Miss Genevieve, let’s play”.

            Genevieve danced with him until the stars faded and the first light of dawn illuminated the eastern skies.  He walked her back to the hotel where she worked, where she had room and board as well as pay and lingered. His cigar glowed in the dark, a burning ember clutched in his fist.

            “I gotta go get some shut-eye,” he growled. “I’m not a day kind of guy, sweetheart.  But if you’re out tomorrow night, look me up.”

            “I will,” Genevieve said, mesmerized by the stranger.  She had to skedaddle though, a day’s work waited and sometime she’d have to try to steal a nap so she could play with Al Brown again.

            At dusk she headed for the dance pavilion, dressed up and with all the bravado she could summon.   It wasn’t until after full dark fell she saw Al Brown again but he made for her the way a hungry trout heads for fresh bait.

“You want to dance some more or what? I’ve got good whiskey if you want a drink.” Al Brown held out a flask and she took it.

            The flask he pulled out was silver and the bourbon Genevieve tasted was fine, nothing like the rank, raw ‘shine her daddy made over Forsyth way.

            “That’s sweet.”

            “And you’re the cat’s pajamas, kiddo.  Let’s go dance.  Do they do the Charleston here or do I need to teach you?”

            Laughter bubbled up like a rainy day spring.

            “I can do the Charleston all night with you, Al.”

            “Then let’s go dance, my little bearcat.”

 

 

            Sweet, strong perfume wafted toward them in a cloud ahead of a woman who lurched on high heels.  Her hem was six inches higher than Genevieve’s and her face, even in the moonlight, was painted.

            “There you are, Al!  I been looking for you.  Who’s the dumb Dora? She looks like a rag a muffin for sure.”

            His voice was a growl, an animal sound that contrasted with the easy way he’d talked to her moments before. 

            “Scram.”

            Genevieve looked down at her plain blue dress, worn organdie she’d remade from one of her aunt’s old dresses.  The full skirt, the long sleeves, and the high neckline contrasted against the flapper’s straight dress that stopped at her knees.   Embarrassment flamed her cheeks and she would have fled into the night if Al hadn’t grabbed her arm.

            “Not you, pretty girl.  Let her take a powder – I want you to stay.”

            “But, Al, she’s a flapper and I’m just a country girl at a dance.  I’m not pretty – she is.”

            He was so close that she could smell the bourbon on his breath and the smoke from his stogie floated into her face.

            “You’re beautiful, honey, with that hair streaming in the wind.  Your dress is out of date but I’ll get you some glad rags tomorrow and we’ll paint the town, what there is to paint.  Come on, baby, let’s dance and forget the dame.  I don’t know her except she came over on the boat from Branson, down on the train from Saint Louie same as me.”

 

            “Hey! You can’t talk about me like that!” Mouth pursed into a bow, the flapper from far away stamped her foot.  “What’s eating you, Al?”

            He tossed the smoldering cigar down at his feet and ground it out.  “You are - so get lost.  Don’t make me tell you no more.  Capiche?

            His harsh tone persuaded her and she yielded. “I get ya, already.  I’m going, I’m going.”

            Genevieve didn’t watch the flapper leave.  She couldn’t, her eyes stung with unshed tears.  She seldom dared to come down to the dance  and it had taken every atom of stubborn resolve to come.   Until Al Brown sauntered onto the floor like he owned the joint, no one but shy, simple Horace Holden usually asked her to dance.  Around Rockaway, she wasn’t beautiful – she was the girl who worked at the brown hotel, daughter of a moonshiner, a hillbilly, nothing much to look at.

 Hours of hand stitching to convert the dress to something wearable seemed futile now and she turned her face away, humiliated and ashamed of her tears.

            Al’s hands cupped her face. “Hey, what’s got you balled up? Don’t mind her – she was just beating her gums.  She’s green over you; you’re an orchid and she’s a daisy.”

            Tears that had threatened erupted at his kind tone and she sobbed as she moved into the shelter of his arms.

            “Here, now, honey, come to Al.  Don’t cry now.”

            He patted her back with one big hand and the weight of   it was comforting.  Genevieve leaned against him and felt safe.  From one pocket he pulled out a handkerchief and dabbed at her eyes with it.   Although he was clumsy, he cared and that meant something.  So did the kisses he covered her face with and the way her body responded to the light caresses.

            “Thank you.” She sniffed twice and scrubbed her face with both hands.  “I didn’t mean to cry.”

            “I hate dames crying.” Al said, tucking the hanky back into his pocket.  “You still wanna dance or you done for the night?”

            Her legs ached, her heart was heavy and she had to be at the hotel by six in the morning but she didn’t want to leave the dance or Al. “I want to dance.” Dancing would take her mind off her troubles and if anyone wanted to stare, let them. “Let’s dance.”

            And they did, first the Charleston, then the Black Bottom, and last she waltzed in Al’s arms until the band stopped playing for the night.  By then the kerosene lanterns had burned down until the wicks sputtered and no more than three other couples lingered. 

            “It must be midnight.” Genevieve said as they left the pavilion.

            Al checked his watch. “No, it’s almost one.  I’m beat.  Want I should walk to your hotel?”

            That wouldn’t do.  The folks who owned the place frowned on fraternizing with summer visitors and she wouldn’t risk it a second time. “No, thank you. It’s not far.”

            “I’ll walk you home.”  It wasn’t a question and she gave in without any more protest because she enjoyed his company. “Thank you, Al.  That would be nice.”

            He snorted. “It ain’t for nice, girlie.  I like you and I want to see you again.   Meet you tomorrow?”

            The road to hell was sweet and paved with temptation but she felt her lips curl into a smile. “Sure.  I get off work around six.”

            His arm around her shoulders was a pleasant weight as they walked up the narrow lane.  A fresh cigar glowed like a devil’s eye in the darkness and she figured the strong aroma would cling to her clothing like cockle burrs but Genevieve didn’t care.   Too soon they reached the hotel. “This is it.  Good night, Al.”

            “Hey.” He growled the word and dropped the cigar to the ground. “A gentleman gives a lady a good night kiss, don’t he?”

            Somehow she didn’t think he was a gentleman. Heat radiated the length of her spine as she tilted her head back for the kiss.  If he’d been greedy before, he savored her mouth now with the slow, deliberate appetite of a connoisseur.  Al awakened dormant passions within and she ached for more.   Gentleman or not, though, he released her.

            “Good night, kid.”

            “Bye.” With one finger she traced the scar that marked his face from near his left ear to the corner of his mouth.  He flinched at her touch and then relaxed, cupping his large hand over hers.  And the scar reminded her of something.  Al Brown.  Al Capone.  Scarface.  She knew who he was now, and although she should, she didn’t care.  She made no move to go inside but stood facing him, their eyes locked.  After a long pause, heady in its silence, he spoke, “Genevieve, you move me, kid, down deep.  I want to drink you in like champagne and eat you up like I was starving.”

            “Then drink me.” Reckless abandon did what lipstick, what paint and powder could not – made her into a vamp.  He circled her with his arms, his Cupid’s bow mouth poised over hers.

            “I gotta tell you something first.” His voice was a growl, a low rumble that made her think of thunder. “My name’s not Al Brown, its Alphonse Capone.  Now you know who I am?”

            “I do but I already made the leap, Al.  It doesn’t matter to me.  Here, you’re just another stranger from the city.  And I like you.  I like you a lot.”

            He laughed and the sound in the darkness echoed without amusement. “I wish everyone felt that way, little doll.  Too many people in Chicago know me and judge me but you don’t and maybe you won’t.  Will you?”

            His eyes were like the lake waters, clear and almost placid but she could sense the ripples that rocked his soul.  Fear, need, and longing warred in his grey eyes and mirrored her own.  Although her throat was dry, she scraped the words out,

            “I won’t judge you, Al.”

Intensity flickered between them like heat lightning on a humid summer night, so strong that she might have feared it in anyone else but she wasn’t afraid of him.  His very difference, the ways he stood out as a stranger in her world were intoxicating and she sensed he felt the same.   Her thoughts fluttered and jumped like grasshoppers in knee-high summer grass but when he touched her, everything faded but the man and the night.

            His lips tasted both sweet and bitter as she gloried in the wild feel of his mouth on hers.  The kiss erased her sordid reputation and negated anything he might be in Chicago.  She savored the pleasure with delight; there had been very little in her life lately. In the honeysuckle scented darkness there was no Al Brown, no furniture dealer, no Genevieve Johnson, no hotel maid, and no Alphonse Capone, nothing but a man and woman who hungered and needed, two people who came together in the way that a compass points true north.

            What would happen didn’t matter because they had this night and maybe more.

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